Fear of work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going to work tomorrow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my application is wrong because I am not doing the breathing application constantly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I can’t be who I am in the breathing application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessive compulsive with the breathing application taking it to the extreme where I  now fear it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my mind to apply the breathing application, forcing it upon myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realise life when I see it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I need my memory to operate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to apply just because others are applying.

I do this for myself.

I am the directive principle.

I am here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take what someone said about being here seriously, that I cannot say that I am here if I am not here.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that if I think I am not here, I am not here.

I obliterate beliefs

I obliterate knowledge

I obliterate personalitys

I live my words from now on

Till here and no further.

I do not stand for what my mind says.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight my mind thinking it is my enemy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for obscure/abstract self forgivenesses so that I might write them down and get other’s affirmations that I am doing a good job and I am assisting them.

But who will assist me?

Only I can assist me.

I FORGIVE MYSELF THAT I HAVE ACCEPTED AND ALLOWED MYSELF TO THINK THAT EXPERIENCE IS EASIER AND BETTER THAN SELF FORGIVENESS AND SELF APPLICATION IN PROCESS.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define levels of process within my mind which I slot into at different times.

The body twitches different muscles as I write self forgivenesses.